A dialogue of two souls
Even though you try to do everything to protect it, sometimes your heart breaks. And you need to put it back together. As you look down on all those pieces, you might find doubt, fear and a million bleeding pieces on the ground. You were such a fool. You knew this would happen. Once you fix it, you’re keeping it for yourself. Only you can protect your heart, it’s not safe in somebody else’s hands so you solemnly vow never to give it to anyone.
As you bend to pick up the pieces one by one, you see disappointment first and you hear a voice say “What made you do this? Why do you feel disappointed?”
- Because I thought he was different. I thought he would never hurt me, you say.
-So did you think he was somebody else? Why couldn’t you see him for who he was? Do you think he could see the real you? Were you really disappointed by him? Or is it possible the image you created failed you? Isn’t it about you hurting yourself over and over again?
-Why would I want to hurt myself? You’re a fool!
-Am I? Do you love yourself? Do you take good care of yourself?
-Of course, I do.
-Then why are you so afraid of opening up to someone new and truly love?
-Because they might take advantage of that.
-And why are you so afraid of that? Why are you afraid of love? If you refuse to open up your heart, nothing good can come in. What do you think about that?
-I think I’m too scared I might find someone who means the world to me but he wouldn’t feel the same way. And yes, I’m afraid of opening up because that means bad things might come in.
-So what you’re saying is you are not worthy of love? Do you remember what you told me when I asked you about that? If you think this way, you don’t know you’re worth. And yes, letting all the good in means letting some bad things in as well and not avoiding all the bad will never teach you what it is you really want and you’ll end up in your own prison – you’ll never be perfectly free. You’re mistaken if you think the bad is there so that you would lock your heart up. You must use these experiences to see that you are in the way of your own happiness. Fear will keep you locked away forever. You need to feel hurt sometimes to get rid of all that’s holding you back. Pain is for you. Pain is born out of love.
-You’re right. I didn’t even see how much I hurt myself. I need to be more careful with y thoughts. I need to think more positive thoughts about myself. And yes, I’m hurting right now but I can see more clearly… I see what I want and what I don’t need in my life. And I don’t need fear in my life. What is this other piece about?
-Lack of self love. Loneliness. If you ask me, your heart needs you. It needs you to love yourself. If you can fix it now, don’t be afraid of breaking it again. It’ll get easier, believe me. And in the end, it will be unstoppable. Just like your love.
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