I’m not enough if you don’t love me enough

Maybe I’m not the person I used to be, I’m not the girl I used to be before you. I might drink my coffee differently in the morning and I might be less clumsy and I might see people who see me weird differently.

I might not wear those shirts anymore but I might still be able to make you laugh in the morning. Your words might not hurt me anymore, I might be able to see them the way you meant to say them.

I felt ashamed because I felt like I was different. I felt like I was not enough, I was never perfect. I always spoke too fast. My hair was always too curly. I was too quick to speak. I was also too short. I could never eat dinner without staining my shirt. I could only give my all and that was too much. I stumble when others strut. And I always said I missed you one too many times.

I will never be enough if you don’t love me enough. I feel like I need to be perfect anymore. One day, my imperfections will make me special in somebody’s eyes and I will love them for their imperfections. There will be a person who loves me even if the whole world rejects me, and I will love him the same way. For our imperfections are for us and we will find each other. We will be together and I will no longer feel like I’m not enough. And when I find him, I will never let him go, not ever.

I am brave enough to be myself now. But I might still be the girl you used to love.

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